'A' level results

I didn't did fabulously, per se, but I got much better than I deserved.

Some friends was so much more hardworking, and they got so little back despite their efforts.

I am glad that I most probably can get into NUS/NTU Chinese, but now I worry if my family can actually let me go to U.

Maybe I would go to take up the teaching scholarship in NIE.

Am I suitable to be a teacher?

I wonder.

I am so happy most of my friends got such good results, most of them better than me, but I think they deserve it.

And Edwin did our class proud.

I am quite disappointed my chinese S didnt get distinction, considering I was the only 1 who got a distinction in school tests all the time.

But oh well, nothing is perfect.

I really really felt like thanking all my teachers who beared with me throughout these 2 years, though I only got C for maths and chem.

I think I owe the teachers a sincere thank you.

But its just so not me to go around hugging and thanking them.

We went out after all the drama and had dinner, walked around a bit and spent some money on useless things.

Just felt like spending some money.

So i bought earrings, and ZX wasted yet another 3 bucks on a seemingly cute yet turned out totally useless gacha item.

But I guess we'll never learn our lesson and will continue screaming whenever we see rows of gacha machines.

I feel rather apologetic towards Jieying for not agreeing to go KBox, but I rather go on a day with more planning and more people, when those who didnt do well had calmed down and so we can all have fun.

And i think I need to clarify.

I started to cry uncontrollably after getting my results, not 喜极而泣 or 悲从中来, but rather, after so long of worrying, speculating and bottling up my emotions,

I just couldnt express my mixed feelings in words.

2 years, so many things happened, and all concluded up in a tiny sheet of paper.

My JC life, my friends, I'm all saying goodbye to them.

I shall soon be stepping into another minefield with no one beside me.

Can I not cry?