Angels and Demons

Sometimes I think it would be very nice to have a religion.
When something good comes along, I would have something or someone definite to direct my thanks to, and not worry my luck will eventually run out.
More importantly, when shit happens, I have someone to blame. Or if not I will be able to find a reason to justify my misery, with something like a promise of heaven waiting for me when everything ends.
Then again, being without a religion adds to my philosophy of 人一定要靠自己, and I feel better to know that I won't ever be in the position to feel abandoned or betrayed by my religion because I put too much faith in something apart from myself.
I don't believe in blaming something else greater than myself for wrongs I've done, like blaming the devil for whispering to you when you're stealing, it's plain wrong.
However, I can't put down the feeling of peace I felt that one time I was in this particular religious infrastructure.
I believe in greater beings high up there, but perhaps they have to find me, since it seems I've failed to find them when I had the chance.